lazzzzy girl

so. i'mma slacker.

i haven't been studying.

i live in a pigsty.

i am pretty sure i'm failing my sats because i don't have my act together.

i write my blogs THE DAY they are due.

i feel like i'm dying under pressure. and the quarter's just begun.

i feel like i'm already behind.

i feel like i'm growing fatter and fatter. and eating wayyy too much.

yesterday's sickness was a wakeup call. 

something's wrong; body's telling me i need to fix it. 

so immediate actions: 

organizeeee.

clean the room.

go out running/jogging. at least to wilmington.

make my business plan. get movingggg

work on my academic life. make sure i'm not FAILING anything painfully obvious. and easy. 

work on studying things i usually like to study. maybe start coloring more in my neuro coloring book. ?

study for sats. in a fun wayyy? 

dance. at least a couple times a week. 

choreograph something (?)

write something non-biographical. fanfic perhapss? 

longterm: 

visit some colleges

start thinking of reasons to stay in the area versus reasons to leave. 

make more friends...

ditch friends who are being so non-friendly. [work in progress]

kick my coffee habit in favor of something healthier. (?)

work out more. eat better. 

buy some seriously wonderful clothes/accessoriess!

write a song. 

sing something in public 

go out with friends blowing off something important. 

be happy in january. 

xoxo,

maithreyi

MOMENTOUS OCCASION

a few things: 

-OBAMAAAAAAA JUST WONNNNN ;] 

SOOOO HAPPY RIGHT NOW. 

i began to remember the dark ages-- right after bush was elected. the first time. 

i remember being a very educated 4th/5th grader. being angry about the war.

wanting to have a voice, but feeling so powerless because the US was not technically MY country.

i had no claim on it. ever since last year...

I AM FULLY EQUIPPED WITH A VOICE--

i have to say, if i could vote, it would definitely be for obama !

i was for him through the primaries. 

i was for him ever since i knew who he was. 

and while i may be a tad more liberal [read: almost socialist/communist on some things LOL]

than he is, he is ultimately the direction the country should go in. 

he, as corny as it sounds, actually believes in the country.

dad says he could be the next lincoln. 

and if my dad thinks he has potential, there's gotta be something about this guy. 

[this is coming from the man who for all intents and purposes "gave up" on his hopes for me in 7th grade. i'm on a downward spiral to him. (just kidding! he loves me. on the inside. deeeep.)  

=) 

but yeah. for now, i just wanted to record my thoughts on this so i can look back in four to eight years on my reactionnn. 

and what i did that day when barack obama was elected. 

-i studied for my sats.

[after procrastinating on the computer.]

-i read a chapter of harry potter

-i ate pasta w/ pesto me and my mommy made

-i ate rice and pickle for lunch

- i went out to help clean the robotics room. which was fruitless cuz the room was already clean. [read: i wanted to go into the school to grab my bio study guide =P ]

-i saw the impact of our town through the extremely long line of cars just to get INTO the student parking lot ;] 

-i drank my mochacoffee thingy. twice. 

and crashed after the second. 

-i watched the bestest political speech in history thus far. [yes, i'm biased.]

-i read up on my fave sites. 

-i watched a lil colbert/stewart. and a lotta cnn. 

- i argued with my daddy over politics! yay. 

ummmm. i think that's it. =) 

it's been a month since i've written. 

and a lot has happened.

junior year has sucked out my soul.

i'm fourth in the class thus far.

and i am dyingggg with pressure. 

the end. 

more later [this weekend]

xoxo, 

maithreyi

FIRST job! and other updates!

okay. so about 2 and a half weeks ago, I got my first job! It's writing. for the 84, a Massachusetts anti-smoking program which focuses on the fact that 84 percent of MA teens don't smoke and the other 16 shouldn't either. I'm blogging about my non-smoking, non-anything life.

in a way, it's about how my life, the interestingness of it, causes others to not want to smoke either. interesting concept, and i really hope it works! 

i don't even know when my first blog will be published and exactly where that will be, especially since I've already submitted it on wednesday. but i am excited. this is the first time i've really gotten a boost in my writing confidence. i LIKE writing. it's good for me, too. it makes me think about communicating to others. something that's sometimes really hard for me. 

sat classes have been really good for me too. i met some fun people. i love goofing around in class because it definitely helps me stay interested and it makes me want to come back to class more often. the hmwrk i could do without though. it's like another two fulltime school classes of work, prolly more if i really scrutinize it. 

and on the driving scene, i got my permit 9/23! : ] 

it's super exciting because now i can drive in the daylight to 12 am with my mommy in the car. 

does it mean i have? absolutely! on 0-2 mph. steering! in the rain! outside of fox hill! driving in circlesss for like an hour!  and then for like all of 5 seconds. in the night. around a parking lot. i love my mommy. i have to start classes at tritown soon though, there's only so much we can do without another brake on the car : ] 

and school beyond sucks. my human phys teacher effectively knows as much as a 3rd year undergrad at umass without studying, and with studying--maybe a first year med student who has a test on whatever it is the next day. 

the fact that he needs to study to teach is pathetic. but even so, shouldn't he know it well enough to explain to a class? YES. 

does he? NO. 

i'm studying for 2009 brain bee. always. because i learn human phys at home. and i never have time to study for brain bee. and i need time. so i use his class. it's legitimately human phys. and anatomy. so i'm not lying, or not studying for his class. i'm just ahead. in so many ways. on so many levels. 

and my mom told me to. so i think my mom's judgement goes before mine, which comes before his in the flow of MY education. 

anyways, besides THAT-- ap bio = amazing, english is really nice, i like my teacher. math is math, methodical and dependable. and ap world? great! lots of work, but mostly just reading and knowing chapter after chapter. we've done 12 chapters in like 4 ish weeks. latin is my favorite though. it's like a constant thread throughout highschool. i'm pretty sure i WANT to continue it next year, for harvard. we'll see how the scheduling works out though. i really need to learn some physics. and i want to take media production. so it'll take some tweaking. 

and dance is getting to be fun. i need to get back to practicing. which means, moving everything around, i don't really know when i'm going to get sleep. but it's going to be worth it. i'll do yaar adhinar much better, and i will learn to manage all my time better.

--maithreyi

SCHOOL and other updates

So today is the first weekend of school season. And a lot has happened since my last post. I went to ABI Biotech camp at Roxbury Latin for the summer and had a great time meeting lots of great people, seeing amazing labs, and working on really cool experiments. Then, right after ABI was over, my family and I shuttled on over to Paris and took a train from there to Brussels to meet up with part of my family: my uncle, aunt, and two little cousins. We went to a Brussels museum, ate authentic Belgian waffles and then hurried on over to Amsterdam, where they live. We sight saw Amsterdam and I had a blast with my cousins! Giving them piggyback rides, playing chess, cooking in the kitchen. all sorts of things. Then we went to Paris to sight see and stay for a couple of days in a Parisan apartment. It was sooooo cool. After Paris, we went to India. We went on a pilgrimage our first full day seeing three temples, and then went to my dad's side of the family in chennai for like a day. Then we went to see great grandma, great uncle and aunt down in madurai, india. it was soooo cool. great grandma or kollu paati is reallly old. can't really walk by herself or see or do much but she WANTS to so she does. she reads the newspaper every morning. does sudoku. plays cards. washes her own clothes. it's amazing what a 90yearold woman can do! Then we shuttled on over to Delhi to spend time with our other two cousins and our aunt and uncle up there. That one day with them was action packed and i wished it never ended. Then it was off to grandma and grandpaaaaa for five days in the countryside of satara, india. they were feeling really ill, so the doctors were coming like every day. it was some sort of lung infection or something. i helped out whenever possible, but it was hard. the last couple of days they were feeling somewhat better though, and now they're alright. we even saw sights there like the beautiful mountains and waterfalls. then it was off to home. we didn't do much once we got back. we went kayaking once. i went out to eat at my friend's brother's gradparty part two [i missed part one when i was in india] which was reallllly fun. i read twilight's breaking dawn. i did all my massive ap homework the day before school started. i ran for field hockey. i went to preseason and doublesessions which was torturous and tryouts finally ended yesterday.
i must say i'm thankful for the field hockey system because if it was like soccer or lacrosse or any other sport, this would be emotional. i mean, varsity and jv are big distinctions. but in field hockey, it's pretty much the same. and everyone's together. we are all on the same bus to each game. and no one is cut or on one team for life. it's a very permeable barrier. so i'm on jv. and i'm a junior. and i'm okay with it. i'm actually kind of excited because there are another five or so juniors with me and we all have experience which means that on the field, we have a shot at winning. which is thrilling. and i wanna be one of those people to shoot. something i doubt i would have experienced on varsity right at the beginning this year.
oh and school is very tough this year. i knew that ap classes would mean work but i had no clue what i was in store for. ap homework for the summer hurt my wrists, because of the amount of notes i had written. but that level of work is consistent for the entire year. just this weekend i have to read a chapter and skim another chapter for tuesday. and then for biology i have another whole set of rules and selfmotivated studying i must do just to make it through let alone get to biology olympiad or something further or attain that 5 on the exam.
but i feel so determined now. i feel accomplished. my arangetram helped me to get this feeling. i feel the power of having done something that i was told a few years ago that i probably would never do. and that feels good. and i'm not giving up there. in the realm of dance, i just gave two performances. different songs. back to back at the temple. the temple! the temple is like the pinnacle of indian dance. if you dance badly at the temple, you disappoint GOD. [well, that's how it happens to play out in my head anyways. hey, if it motivates...] and i gave stellar performances. so i'm not going anywhere there. so why give up in everything else that i have been good at for years? exactly.
my goals are getting closer. i can almost taste them. sats are coming and that's my first real test at how much i can work to get to where i want to go. i neeeeeed that 2400 or at least a 2300. if i don't get it, i don't know what i'll do but i don't have to find out because i will get it. i will attain my dream. this is my time. i'm gonna have it all, and you know why? just because i want it!

xoxo, maithreyi [haha, gossip girl is starting on mondayyyyyyy! LOL]