it's been a month since i've written. 

and a lot has happened.

junior year has sucked out my soul.

i'm fourth in the class thus far.

and i am dyingggg with pressure. 

the end. 

more later [this weekend]

xoxo, 

maithreyi

FIRST job! and other updates!

okay. so about 2 and a half weeks ago, I got my first job! It's writing. for the 84, a Massachusetts anti-smoking program which focuses on the fact that 84 percent of MA teens don't smoke and the other 16 shouldn't either. I'm blogging about my non-smoking, non-anything life.

in a way, it's about how my life, the interestingness of it, causes others to not want to smoke either. interesting concept, and i really hope it works! 

i don't even know when my first blog will be published and exactly where that will be, especially since I've already submitted it on wednesday. but i am excited. this is the first time i've really gotten a boost in my writing confidence. i LIKE writing. it's good for me, too. it makes me think about communicating to others. something that's sometimes really hard for me. 

sat classes have been really good for me too. i met some fun people. i love goofing around in class because it definitely helps me stay interested and it makes me want to come back to class more often. the hmwrk i could do without though. it's like another two fulltime school classes of work, prolly more if i really scrutinize it. 

and on the driving scene, i got my permit 9/23! : ] 

it's super exciting because now i can drive in the daylight to 12 am with my mommy in the car. 

does it mean i have? absolutely! on 0-2 mph. steering! in the rain! outside of fox hill! driving in circlesss for like an hour!  and then for like all of 5 seconds. in the night. around a parking lot. i love my mommy. i have to start classes at tritown soon though, there's only so much we can do without another brake on the car : ] 

and school beyond sucks. my human phys teacher effectively knows as much as a 3rd year undergrad at umass without studying, and with studying--maybe a first year med student who has a test on whatever it is the next day. 

the fact that he needs to study to teach is pathetic. but even so, shouldn't he know it well enough to explain to a class? YES. 

does he? NO. 

i'm studying for 2009 brain bee. always. because i learn human phys at home. and i never have time to study for brain bee. and i need time. so i use his class. it's legitimately human phys. and anatomy. so i'm not lying, or not studying for his class. i'm just ahead. in so many ways. on so many levels. 

and my mom told me to. so i think my mom's judgement goes before mine, which comes before his in the flow of MY education. 

anyways, besides THAT-- ap bio = amazing, english is really nice, i like my teacher. math is math, methodical and dependable. and ap world? great! lots of work, but mostly just reading and knowing chapter after chapter. we've done 12 chapters in like 4 ish weeks. latin is my favorite though. it's like a constant thread throughout highschool. i'm pretty sure i WANT to continue it next year, for harvard. we'll see how the scheduling works out though. i really need to learn some physics. and i want to take media production. so it'll take some tweaking. 

and dance is getting to be fun. i need to get back to practicing. which means, moving everything around, i don't really know when i'm going to get sleep. but it's going to be worth it. i'll do yaar adhinar much better, and i will learn to manage all my time better.

--maithreyi

SCHOOL and other updates

So today is the first weekend of school season. And a lot has happened since my last post. I went to ABI Biotech camp at Roxbury Latin for the summer and had a great time meeting lots of great people, seeing amazing labs, and working on really cool experiments. Then, right after ABI was over, my family and I shuttled on over to Paris and took a train from there to Brussels to meet up with part of my family: my uncle, aunt, and two little cousins. We went to a Brussels museum, ate authentic Belgian waffles and then hurried on over to Amsterdam, where they live. We sight saw Amsterdam and I had a blast with my cousins! Giving them piggyback rides, playing chess, cooking in the kitchen. all sorts of things. Then we went to Paris to sight see and stay for a couple of days in a Parisan apartment. It was sooooo cool. After Paris, we went to India. We went on a pilgrimage our first full day seeing three temples, and then went to my dad's side of the family in chennai for like a day. Then we went to see great grandma, great uncle and aunt down in madurai, india. it was soooo cool. great grandma or kollu paati is reallly old. can't really walk by herself or see or do much but she WANTS to so she does. she reads the newspaper every morning. does sudoku. plays cards. washes her own clothes. it's amazing what a 90yearold woman can do! Then we shuttled on over to Delhi to spend time with our other two cousins and our aunt and uncle up there. That one day with them was action packed and i wished it never ended. Then it was off to grandma and grandpaaaaa for five days in the countryside of satara, india. they were feeling really ill, so the doctors were coming like every day. it was some sort of lung infection or something. i helped out whenever possible, but it was hard. the last couple of days they were feeling somewhat better though, and now they're alright. we even saw sights there like the beautiful mountains and waterfalls. then it was off to home. we didn't do much once we got back. we went kayaking once. i went out to eat at my friend's brother's gradparty part two [i missed part one when i was in india] which was reallllly fun. i read twilight's breaking dawn. i did all my massive ap homework the day before school started. i ran for field hockey. i went to preseason and doublesessions which was torturous and tryouts finally ended yesterday.
i must say i'm thankful for the field hockey system because if it was like soccer or lacrosse or any other sport, this would be emotional. i mean, varsity and jv are big distinctions. but in field hockey, it's pretty much the same. and everyone's together. we are all on the same bus to each game. and no one is cut or on one team for life. it's a very permeable barrier. so i'm on jv. and i'm a junior. and i'm okay with it. i'm actually kind of excited because there are another five or so juniors with me and we all have experience which means that on the field, we have a shot at winning. which is thrilling. and i wanna be one of those people to shoot. something i doubt i would have experienced on varsity right at the beginning this year.
oh and school is very tough this year. i knew that ap classes would mean work but i had no clue what i was in store for. ap homework for the summer hurt my wrists, because of the amount of notes i had written. but that level of work is consistent for the entire year. just this weekend i have to read a chapter and skim another chapter for tuesday. and then for biology i have another whole set of rules and selfmotivated studying i must do just to make it through let alone get to biology olympiad or something further or attain that 5 on the exam.
but i feel so determined now. i feel accomplished. my arangetram helped me to get this feeling. i feel the power of having done something that i was told a few years ago that i probably would never do. and that feels good. and i'm not giving up there. in the realm of dance, i just gave two performances. different songs. back to back at the temple. the temple! the temple is like the pinnacle of indian dance. if you dance badly at the temple, you disappoint GOD. [well, that's how it happens to play out in my head anyways. hey, if it motivates...] and i gave stellar performances. so i'm not going anywhere there. so why give up in everything else that i have been good at for years? exactly.
my goals are getting closer. i can almost taste them. sats are coming and that's my first real test at how much i can work to get to where i want to go. i neeeeeed that 2400 or at least a 2300. if i don't get it, i don't know what i'll do but i don't have to find out because i will get it. i will attain my dream. this is my time. i'm gonna have it all, and you know why? just because i want it!

xoxo, maithreyi [haha, gossip girl is starting on mondayyyyyyy! LOL]

TODAY.

So, yes. random day to write a blogpost.
but i write when i feel it. and right now, i'm feeling it.

so, basically, i have the two best friends anyone could everrrr ask for.
my best friends aren't reallly in numbers. and if they were, i doubt they'd feel like my best friends.
yes, i have never gone to a concert. and one of the factors which causes this is the lack of similar music taste. but our differences make us more fond of each other. make us learn from each other.

neha--- so like, me and neha have only really known each other since the 5th grade. but i don't think i've ever had more fun with anyone else or laughed with anyone else more than i do with her. we're something between the same person and opposites. we're liek each otehr's halves, but ourselves at the same time. i feel like i can talk to her without saying a thing. and i feel like i could tell her anything and everything, and she'd listen. it's a great feeling to have that person there. and she is truly a happy person. never frowning, never pessimistic. she's a beautiful person and friend. and i'm so happy that i am friends with her. <3

karishma--so. i make fun w/ and of karishma a lot-- w/ neha lol. but it's all in good fun! she's such a good friend. she cares soooo much . and even though she's sometimes mean, and calls us mean, she really means well. and i love her. she loves the same games, and tv shows as me. and she understands my feelings sometimes. and she's always there to help or listen. and vent to. and just have fun with. and her house is always open -- to talk or just veg out in. and it's amazing to have that type of family type people who are there for you. ;]

and when we went dress shopping today, it really shows how close/distant a group of friends is.

back in the day when i went with the old crew, i felt soooo sad about dress shopping. i lied and agreed with their opinions, but honestly, every dress looked more ridiculous than the one before it. it was horrible and i hated how i felt wearing those clothes. with neha and karishma, i needn't lie. i could tell the truth, and when i liked something--they'd say it before i did. they careee in a way the others didn't. they understand how it feels to wear the clothes and be the one watched or whatever. they get me more than i get myself sometimes. and it was fun to make fun of those dresses that i once thought were cool! LOL

and though neither of us found what we were looking for, it was a great feeling to know what type of thing we were looking for and not have to fit in a box that wasn't for us.
it was good.

i can't wait for karishma's sweet 16, cuz no matter what we're wearing-- we'll have an amazing time!

winding down...

the road is winding down...

REALLY.

sophomore year is overrrr. and i just feel like i've accomplished something by finishing like this.

i feel like the whole year has been waiting to be done -- and now that it is, i'll reap my rewards.

i am off again to a paid-learning.
but this time, it's competitive. so that counts for something right?
progress! next year i neeeeed an internship that counts.