oh. my friday post that is completely bull and null and void :)

oh. my old post that is completely bull and null and void :)
so here's my quoted written out blog post from friday, when i was nervous and feeling really down and unsure.

" Blogtitle: Career?
Entry: Most of my educational career, I've looked at my adult life asa chance to make it big, to write the next great American novel. To be an AMAZING writer. To win the Pulitzer. To be Jhumpa Lahiri (sp?). Then CTY catered to the CIA detective side of me. And I love(d) it!
But now that I face college, I feel like i'm not giving myself room to grow. Yeah, freshman writing made me feel like I absolutely stink at writing. And writing courses would do no better. I feel like I need a chance to break through. To feed my artsy side and satisfy my scientific soul.
I mean, I'm ASIAN and my WRITING and READING SAT scores farrr surpass my mathematics scores. (that can be remedied, my parents'll say. "MATHS is in your blood!" exclaims my mother...) This should indicate that I'm ... SOMETHING.
For my career, I definitely want to do mind-altering research in neuroscience. But I feel like I want MORE. The MORE i get out of DDR, blogging, watching heroes and house. Out of CTY, not in class. and in class. That MORE. That fullfillment that my life isn't just numbers. or work. MORE."

So, looking back to friday, i realize i am pretty melodramatic.
I know what I want. and I'll always get the chance to write as a scientist in my papers. and i can still probably write books. about neuroscience. and the ever-growing field. I love writing, even though I'm not conventionally good at it.
at all! And just listening to career panel made me realize that a PhD isn't the end of the road. It's not a bajillion years and i'll be OLD! nahh, i think i can do what i want. And all i'll need is a MD/PhD or a PhD to do it.
and that's like what? 7 years or 9 years?
not too shabby.
and i'll get to do what i want all along the way.
shweeeet.