friends

i feel like i'm weird when it comes to friends.
I don't have that go-to group.
I have a bunch of people that I meet and connect with.
And then I'm part of these organizations and teams where it feels as though I'm friends with everyone in that group, but not really. Ultimate feels like that. I feel like people know me and I know them, but it's very polite--and that may be my own fault. I'm not very open in the way that they are. I talk openly, I make new friends, sure. but i'm ...less in-your-face. I am so much more interested in PLAYING than the side-stuff. I want us to win. I want to be good at playing the sport. The parties and stuff don't seem to be my type of scene. I just wish I had gone to the tourney because then I'd feel included without these outsider-ish feelings.

Friend wise- I like the two main groups I have to count on, my HSO board<3 and then my TCF crew. I feel like HSO has become just a group of cool Indian kids that happen to run this Hindu organization together. I feel like we all get along so well and it's so fun to hang with them. And they have good advice :] cuz they are all SO old! haha. but I really feel like I can ask them for help and to hang out and talk to them cuz we're friends now.

TCF kids are just my friends. we're better friends though because we can connect spiritually. I can understand how that is important to them and what they do and why. It makes our friendship deeper in a way than any other friendships because I have seen them all pray and think about God while I do as well. I have a greater appreciation for them than other non-Christians, I guess. I love how moral and grounded and caring they are, out of the greatness within them. It's not fake, and I love that.

So if I never develop a friendgroup, I feel like I'll be alright.
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xoxo,
maithreyi
[yay for indians&(non-indians)who can call me it properlyyy !]