life in 2007

i'm looking back on life in general in this last year.
while listening to crash rock show :)
and i'm fixated on summer moments.
and stupid times i tried to stay in touch
but that's all over. and i have to get over it.
which makes me sadder than i'll admit.
and esp when i listen to certain music, facts about such things ache.
a lot.
i hate writing here sometimes, cuz it's a public blog. and certain people
from certain places
who are certainly not meant to read these confessions but at the same time are the only people with the right to read them. if that makes any sense.
anyways, this'll be a give in-- but i realllllly miss "nightswimming" near you. with you.
and if you're out there, i hope we can still be friends. good friends. like i hope we have been.

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other than that-- 2007 was a year of epiphanies for me.
i realized andover wasn't for me. even though i was lost in that dream for the longest time.
i excelled academically and found my calling in one summer.
i found my career. neuroscientist.
i realized who i am.
i did important soulsearching.
i realized dance is something that i can't live without. and i actually do love doing.
i made important choices in my life. and prioritized.
i dreamed of things and those things are actually possible.

i met the most important and best people i've ever met in my life. besides my family of course.
and my current biffs.

i realized another year of amazing summer for the sake of amazing summer isn't worth it. even though i want so badly to go back to that moment.
i realized it's time to look to the future. and college. and careers. and goals.
and if fate has a plan,