now i'm stuck in sanity.

start: 5/12/08
and i've seen it all, many times before.

so the year is winding down. next week is mcas. my first rehearsal is this sunday.

and i'm like freakinggg out.

arangetram is coming along swimmingly.

i'm being stupid to say that i suck.

i don't. i'm actually quite good.

my dancing is fabulous. i just need to make minor changes to improve. basically, now my mommy and ranjani auntie are just nitpicking. cuz what else are they supposed to do for a MONTH?

certainly not relax.

of course not! that's impossible.

[note the sarcasmmm]

but i haven't STUDIED for mcas.

i haven't started to look through notes for things for finals (that would be crazzy)

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cont: 5/14/08

yeah. so nowadays, sleep only comes to me at or around midnight.
i am becoming nightowly.

and i have decided to try a buncha new things.
like
- mass email all the brain and cognitive science faculty! [if you are faculty, and somehow found this blog, and are annoyed, i am really sorry! and really desperate! i needdd to research this summer! ]

- tried applying for a parttime job @ borders! which i actually really want. cuz if i don't get to research, i'll at least get to read! a lot!
and drink yummy drinks from seattle's best coffee. which isn't quite starbucks, but is adequate. and sometimes better. and eat yummy coldstone! :)

- RAN FOR TREASURERRRRRR.
omg vote for me! :)
FOR CHANGE WE CAN SUCCEED WITH

=)

and i took it all seriously.
and made an amazinggg speech. quoting GANDHI :)
and i really think i have a big change on winning.

-JOINED robotics! after two years of straight make-funniness.
i did this cuz of FIRST. it's a big deal. and fun. and a great opportunity. so many MIT kids did it. and this opportunity came right after AMRITA got top 16 in the 2.007 robotics competition. where ranjani auntie was all ," if amrit can do it, anyone can!" so i thought i could :)


i'm excited for junior year.
ap world and ap bio. and i'm really considering electing to take ap psychology, just to be all badass and get a 5.
and FRC. which actually is in between the beginning of musical season and casting. so i don't know whether the play is in or not. depends on what play. and how i feel about it.
and BRBB again ! :) where i'll soooo wipe the floor with the seniors.

but right now i'm sooooo tired. the midnight oil is always burning. and i'm sooooo tired.

i think june 8th is really going to change my life.
i feel so accomplished about dance already.
i've come so far, and i have so little left to go.
i think i can get somewhere with this.

after i'm done with my arangetram: anything's possible.
i can conquer the world ! dance is so hard for me, anything will be easier!

=)